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2 Comments Where do I fit?
So as I struggle to deal with the loss of my grandfather, I feel so confused.
I don’t know where I fit in.
I’m not fully adult, not fully child.
Let me explain.
My grandparents had 3 living children. My father was the oldest, and he had 2 sisters. I, of course, am the son of my father, the oldest grandchild. I have 5 cousins and one stepbrother, making a total of 7 grandchildren.
I am 30 years old. I’ve been married for 10 years almost, and have two children. I’m an adult. But not adult enough to be in the adult group when it comes to planning, grieving, coping, etc.
Of the 7 grandchildren, 2 of them are 30 (me and my stepbrother). The next oldest is I think 18. Then 3 grandchildren are teenagers, middle school and high school age. Finally, the youngest grandchild is 8, which is the same age as my son. I’m a grandchild. But I’m not a kid, and I don’t really feel like I fit in with the kids.
So, here I am. Not feeling like I fit in anywhere. I’m so grateful I have a wonderful wife to help me get through this.
I know exactly how you feel — I have felt the same way when it comes to my families as well, it’s hard to be caught in the middle like that. I, too, am glad you have your wonderful wife, cling to her! There are few things more frustrating than wanting to help and offering to, but not being allowed to; however, I am sure that your family is not doing it on purpose, they probably don’t realize at all how they’re making you feel. Hang in there!!
Psalm 55:22
I feel the sdame, though diferent. At Thanksgiving my wife and I always have to sit at the kids table, because we have the most kids, but my brother and sister in law leave Charley there and let us watch her. Brian and Steven both usually get to sit with the Adults.
I hate that feeling though!!